SELF ONE                                                    SELF-1.TXT
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       Copyright Steven P Renoir

       May we open the mystery of this love as much as we are given. May we
       not claim ownership of this knowledge for it is the property of us
       all.

       This Love exists within the very hearts of all beings everywhere.

       It is the very Self of ourselves and is the I of we.

       This love is not given from another but is given to us by ourselves
       only after another validates us by accepting the way we behave or
       act, i.e. treat or accept us for the way we behave or act.

       Which behavior is according to how we or they wish to be perceived.
       A sort of putting out for validation.

       Now this desire to be perceived in a certain way, is wanted, even
       demanded, as a validation of our level of self-esteem.

       So we look outward to those who are willing to validate that
       self-esteem, and construct a life that is a reflection of same.

       We are at a loss to explain how and/or why we do not Love ourselves
       unless the exterior validates us.

       The level of happiness and self-esteem we allow ourselves is a
       direct result of our erroneous belief that the exterior world must
       be the validator of our worth.

       This is the reason we feel great if we are living our ideal etc.

       So self-esteem is at the very heart of everything we allow ourselves
       to experience.

       Low self-esteem is the root cause of all hate, fear, and anger etc.
       both in the world and in the person.

       If we look to the outer reality, or to experiences that are a result
       of interaction with that reality, or exterior person for our
       self-esteem we will only find temporary fulfillment for the truth is
       ONE and that one is Love.

       It lives and has its source within us all. We are its manifestation
       that it might through us out of compassion for itself love itself.

       Thus the ultimate in self-esteem is to love the love in our hearts,
       for it is nothing but The Self which would but love itself through
       us.

       It is not ours to say I will love that one and not this one. It does
       not discriminate at all.

       This love is the very being of all beings, it is not divided into
       billions. It IS the billions.

       It is incredible! It lives in the heart and is God, it is
       omnipresent.. OOMM

       There is no mentation or confusion, it does not require a special
       knowledge or understanding or enlightenment, for it IS light and is
       accessible to all freely. It is the "Thou Art That". If you would.

       There are may paths up the mountain but there is only one summit
       Love is this summit.

       Each path begins at the bottom With each step it affirms itself and
       will not be denied.

       The decision to Love is the most important decision we will ever
       make, yet we tend to think that love is a feeling, it is not, it "IS
       FEELING ITSELF" any feeling all feelings..

       What! You say in amazement!

Yes is it even the awful ones? Yes!

Like this...

When we love we feel love itself, when we don't Love we feel
something else.. No we feel love.

We feel awful, Love (via this awful feeling) is telling us this
awful feeling is the result of not loving so it is like a good
parent telling us where we are failing via example.

Now if we listen then we will immediately see what to do or stop
doing, it tells us so very, very clearly yet we ignore it
because of our level of self-esteem.

What we feel when another or something exterior validates what
we conceive of as us, (our self-concept i.e. ego) in the way we
(thinking we are this self-concept) expect, we release a little
more Love to this self-concept or ego and our self-esteem goes
up a notch or two.

Now because we rely on the exterior for the Love we so
desperately seek, our self-esteem is fragile and prone to go up
and down with the vagaries of life.

Hence lasting happiness cannot be found as it relies on exterior
self-esteem or ego gratification.

The Love given unconditionally to Love is incredible, yet so few
of us will allow ourselves this due to our low self-esteem
when the truth is that we are the Love we feel.

When we (the self-concept or ego) feel love we (the self-concept
or ego) are in truth experiencing our true self which has no
relationship to the self-concept or ego. So we (the self-concept
or ego) think that we the (the self-concept or ego) are
experiencing something other than what we (the self-concept or
ego) think is ourselves.

The depth of Love we are prepared to give to The Self which is
Love, is the moderator of our experience of Love. In other words
it's simply a matter of loving into love with all our being.

This Loving into love is done only by an intense desire to love
hence the experience of extreme bliss happens very quickly,
because love is the first cause of all experience and searching
for experience.

What we seek is Love utter Love, Love drives us to seek and to
find itself as ourselves this is why it manifested us.

Love is its own reflection as it is its own cause, out of
compassion for itself it sought expression.

Hence species perpetuate, we procreate and genus propagates and
transmutes, planets and mighty suns are born and die. Races,
civilizations and species appear and disappear and god plays
within his consciousness.

Now saying I am a great runner, mother, explorer, swimmer,
fighter or any other great thing other than love, requires an
exterior for its validation or proof, removes ones self-esteem
instantly, until the exterior fulfills this ridiculous image.

We will not allow ourselves one spec of Love until our self-
concept is accepted by the exterior, let alone accept our own
Love, what we must do is replace our erroneous self-concept with
the truth. i.e. Get rid of our ego and its reason for existing.

There is absolutely no other way to get rid of our ego than to
replace it with our true self which is our love.

Even our ego has a purpose in the scheme of things as Love goes.
Its purpose is to show us where we are not loving hence even it
is a manifestation of Love.

Now when we think we are in Love, we believe we are effected by
some ridiculous thing exterior to ourselves over which we have
no control, this is not true at all.

What happens is the one we think we have fallen in love with has
validated our self-concept to such a degree that we feel confident
in Loving ourselves a lot more than we have here-to-for habitually
done.

Other than this the attraction is created by our psychological
response to that others self-concept and/or we are sexually
attracted by the genetic recognition of someone to breed with
and thereby perpetuate our erroneous belief in the exterior
validation of our own self-concept or ego.

Through this the Ego's desire for immortality through the
perpetuation of the species is guaranteed, even our
psychological problems are passed on to our offspring.

In this way the parents feel fulfilled through their children.
This is ridiculous as all that is fulfilled is the parents
erroneous self-esteem and ego.

Now when a relationship with someone ends, either through
incompatibility (which is really the failure to validate one
another) or death, or we lose something, or something is stolen
etc., we feel grief, or anger or resentment or whatever negative
thing, because that person or thing is no longer in our lives to
validate our self-esteem.

Our self-esteem is lowered or altered. If it is not, then the
person or thing does not play a part in our self-esteem.

Now we feel anger, hurt, resentment, indignation, empathy etc.
at the news the media puts on, or we feel this or that way
because our peers either accept us or don't because of how we
dress, the car we drive, even the shoes we wear and our self-
esteem alters in some way.

Again, if none of these things matters to us then our self-
esteem will not change at all, yet it will still be based upon
the degree of Love we give to Love.

Love being our True Self is limited by our Self-concept, to
perpetuate that very self-concept.

If we get rid of that stupid belief and thought and decide to
get serious about loving Love, then we can experience Existence
-consciousness-Bliss all at once, because that is what Love is.

This is not ego and cannot be construed as such, for it admits
nothing but love for Love. Just as Love is the proof of Love.

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EMOTIONAL RESPONSIBILITY AND KUNDALINI
The first thing we must do to understand the part which
emotion plays in our experience of being, is to understand the
nature of emotions and what generates them.

It is not necessary to note all the emotions available to us
as emotions are emotions, and arise stimuli.

Some schools of thought would say that there are lots of other
bodies which we live in and through, in an ever-subtler way.
(i.e., Which contribute to the full manifestation of any given
being.) bodies which some schools may also say we must
transcend, reactivate, purify, etc. these bodies, one by one,
through various practices, etc. in order to integrate,
harmonize, transcend them all etc.

However in this Yoga, it is the Kundalini which does this
purifying as it expands out into the awareness in every
direction, as well as inward in every direction.

If we were to think about the sum of these directions as a
single movement in a given direction, then there would appear
to be no movement, however the movement is one in an infinite
array of tangents of tension, potency, etc. like a spring
wound up but unreleased, or the potential in emptiness to
contain anything. In this way it is an infinite power
expanding infinitely. It may called "Tangential Exigency"

Now Kundalini intensifies as our awareness expands, until the
emotional body the mental body, and whatever other bodies and
their attributes are consumed in a camora of Yogic fire, i.e.
what is called Agni, or the universal fire etc.

Some may call this the rising of Kundalini, when the body is
consumed, or they may call the associated bodily sensations of

the movement of Kundalini, the actual awakening of Kundalini.
This is not so as Kundalini is always awake, all that is
occurring is that the beings awareness is expanding and with

that expansion, becoming more able to perceive on a broader
wave length or band.

Which brings us to the point of perception in consciousness
or cognition, of something occurring.

What is perceived by consciousness as emotion, as a result of
this or that event, is said to be an experience of this or
that, yet what consciousness perceived is merely a psycho-
chemical reaction which itself is a reaction to what some
might call a reaction in the emotional body, to emanations
from the emotional body of another, through which it is said
that the indwelling spirit interacts with the Universe which
is itself.

If this is true, then there are infinite Universes, which
number if it was countable, would be expanding at a compound
rate equal to the sum of Omnipresence itself. Either this is
true or there is one Omnipresence experiencing itself in
multifarious manifestation on all levels at once.

What is really happening is that the Omnipresent is
interacting with its thoughts, as is understood to be
happening in the human brain, and at the level of atoms where
photons of light beget photons on collision, thus leading to
the conclusion of an ever expanding single Universe, from
within the very depths of atomic particles themselves.

Emotion connects consciousness to matter, in the same way that
the synapse connect the neurons in the brain. In this way it
may be said that with the absence of emotion there is the
absence of the appearance of consciousness in a being. Yet the
truth is that Emotion is the thing which limits consciousness
to matter, as emotion is the product of the interaction of
consciousness with matter, while not the removal or rejection
of, but the transmutation of, all emotion into Love, which is
itself consciousness, releases the consciousness into the
experience of its Omnipresent-Omniscient-Omnipotence.

Omnipotence. because it is beyond, yet inheres matter.
Omnipresent, as it is all existence and non-existence.
Omniscient, as it transcends Knowledge and ignorance alike.

Now Omnipotence requires something upon which to act else it
is impotent.

Omniscience requires something to know else it is ignorance.

Omnipresence requires a place to be else it is nowhere.

NOWHERE IS THE KEY TO THIS PARADOX.
Nowhere is somewhere as it is nowhere, therefore all the
aforementioned requirements are met in this, as all are
dependent on each other, and go to make the one, which is the
sum of the three. From this it can be seen that the nowhere is
very consciousness itself, which does not require matter in
order to be conscious.

Nor does it require energy as energy is the sum of matter,
as Mister Einstein has shown.

Thus consciousness transcends matter itself as well as
individual life, and is indivisible.

All awareness as it expands, from the most unaware to the
greatest, is enlivened, enhanced and maintained by the action
of consciousness in the being, all that happens in the highest
awareness, is that it becomes directly apprehensible because
of, and through the subordination of emotions to the will,
this results in highly developed awareness, which
consciousness itself, created as a result of building the
tension, potency or wave length etc. In the matter of apparent
individual.

Some schools may call Kundalini something else or not even
mention it. One of the more common names is Shakti, but even
the schools which may call it Shakti, may say that Kundalini
is not Shakti, it is however Shakti.

The Vedanta and those schools which teach transcendental
consciousness, may say that there are all sorts of divisions
and levels in the one, but there aren't. These levels etc.,
appear to be levels, only because there appear to be
individual consciousness' and individual objects. Science
tells us these days, that nothing is individual on the level
of matter, or on the level of energy.

While religions of all types will talk of the Soul of an
individual, or say that the Soul is the individual. This is
not true either as these concepts are likewise sources of
beliefs in division and limitation and thus also create the
illusion of levels etc. in awareness, and divisive ideas of
self-hood i.e. ego, in the Omnipresent Being which exists as
all in all.

Saying that Kundalini is not energy of the same type that
Universes are composed of, or that, this or that manifestation
of appearance of something, is separate from and individual in
a unified Omnipresence, is ridiculous, or that Shakti,
consciousness, Chit, satchitananda, Buddha, God, mind stuff,
Supermind or whatever else one wants to call it, is higher or
lower than this or that etc., is also ridiculous.

As consciousness transcends matter and energy as well as Non-

existence and itself by the very fact of its existence, which
is not existence.

Now to take responsibility for our emotions is to grow nearer

and nearer the realization of this great truth.

At a certain point the awareness in our apparently separate
consciousness, (which some may call the awakening of
Kundalini) is realized, though it was there all along as our
emotions, yet at this point they are allowed to manifest as
Unmanifest action, thus Kundalini.

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Now to look at the nature of the manifestation of all that
exists.

On the one hand we have the as is said the transcendent Nature
of "That" and on the other hand we have the Immanent nature of
"That"

These together go to make the cosmic nature of the omnipresent
"That"

I am going to try and describe Omnipresence and how it works.

Now as we know there are countless Lokas etc. this is not really
important as all are permeated by The Self as it were, also
names and terms are not important as there are also countless
words etc....

We shall talk in absolute generalities... these generalities are
valid as we are talking of omnipresence.

To begin I shall make a statement and then explain it:


ALL EXISTENCE IS MYSELF

This means that I am literally everything perceivable from any
level of consciousness and am that very consciousness which
perceives what is perceived.

As might be said: The all in all. Transcending yet inhering all
as the thing perceived.

ALL CONSCIOUSNESS IS MINE

As I am that which is conscious in every consciousness on every
level.

I AM CONSCIOUS ONLY OF MYSELF WHICH IS CONSCIOUSNESS.

As what is perceived is but myself on all rays, in all heavens,
in all Lokas etc... levels etc....

THERE IS NOTHING WHICH IS MANIFEST WHICH IS NOT MYSELF

As I am the very substance of "That"

EVERY ATOM EVERY APPEARANCE OF ANYTHING AT ALL INCLUDING LIGHT
AND LOVE AND THE  BEING OF BEING ARE MYSELF...

No thing exists at all that is not myself.

IT IS NOT POSSIBLE TO PERCEIVE ANYTHING WHICH IS NOT MYSELF.

As I manifest all of all levels and dimensions and everything
and every appearance of another from within.

ALL LEVELS ARE IMMEDIATELY TRANSCENDABLE.

As I am conscious of all levels and dimensions at the moment I
choose this or that depth of perception, which depth is governed
by the depth of love that I project into that perception.

EVERYTHING IS MANIFESTED FOR THE REASON THAT I AM OMNIPRESENT

In this way I am completely beyond, yet subject myself to the
stricture of manifold manifestation.

MY CONSCIOUSNESS IS NOT LOCATED ANYWHERE AT ALL.

Yet at the moment that I choose to perceive as this or that
consciousness
I appear to these creatures as what they consider their very "I"
or self. Thus I am beyond them.

I know nothing but myself as the consciousness of that which is
conscious, in this way I appear to be many billions of creatures
and Universes. Yet am beyond them all.

In this way I am OMNISCIENT- OMNIPRESENT- OMNIPOTENCE knowing
myself from within the very consciousness of said being.

The knowledge a being thinks it has can be said to be knowledge
of this or that, yet all manifestation is not separate from my
consciousness thus I am beyond very consciousness itself and am
"That".

I STAND BEYOND THE COSMOS AND KNOW OMNIPRESENCE THROUGH THE
ETERNAL ATTENUATION OF BEGETTING OF EVERYTHING THAT COMES INTO
BEING ON ALL LEVELS.

I manifest as the entire cosmos embracing all universes and know
my OMNISCIENT- OMNIPRESENT- OMNIPOTENCE.
I DO NOT MANIFEST AS AN INDIVIDUAL AT ALL.

I exist on all levels and dimensions at once. I am manifest as
"That"

I CANNOT SAY I AM HERE OR THERE AS I AM ALSO THERE.

I am the dimension or level itself as well as what is within
that place.

The cosmos is a monism. It is The Superbeing, not the universe
for there are countless universes contained in the cosmos, which
cosmos is contained within my consciousness.

ANY BEING IS THE CENTER OF THAT BEINGS PERCEIVED UNIVERSE.

The perceptual ability of every being colors the perception that
being has of the Universe.

I permeate the cosmos and am the source of every being
manifesting a universe outward through the heart of every being.

The perception of each universe is colored by the level of
consciousness of that being, as light seen through colored glass
differs with the color.

Thus an ants perception and experience of the universe does not
appear the same as a dogs or a mans, yet it is the same one, the
universe seems to expand with the perception of such being up to
the cosmic consciousness.

All these beings exist within the cosmos as do all these various
Universes.
From this it can be seen what is OMNIPRESENCE.

I RELATE TO MYSELF DOWNWARD THROUGH THE HIERARCHY OF THE
MANIFESTATION OF MY BEING.

From "That" on down I know all beings as manifestations of my
EXISTENCE-CONSCIOUSNESS-BLISS. In this way there are no
dimensions yet all beings are the overself of the universe which
is them..


I AM OMNISCIENT- OMNIPRESENT- OMNIPOTENCE.

EACH AND EVERY BEING IS GOD UNTO ITSELF


I am the repose of all gods as all exist within me.

All these universes are conjoint and are The Self.
ALL THESE UNIVERSES MAKE UP OMNIPRESENCE.

The sum of all consciousness is omniscience

I AM THAT AND AM BEYOND THESE UNIVERSES.

I AM OMNISCIENT

DOING THIS I AM OMNIPOTENT

At a single point I am all of myself and eternally now.

I AM IMMANENT AND TRANSCENDENT OF EXISTENCE-CONSCIOUSNESS-BLISS.

Now we shall discuss Omniscience using the pre-condition of
Omnipresence.

Now each and every individual being within each and every level,
Loka, heaven, hell, society, culture, genus, species, etc....
experiences the universe in a unique way, and is conscious of it
in a unique way, meaning that the unique consciousness, or mind
is like the glass described previously, same light or
consciousness, different colored glass.

In this way I know all states and levels of consciousness and
all degrees of perception, from the lowest to the highest, I can
step from one to the other simply by an act of Love.

Love is complete surrender of self-hood, so I become as I may,
not remaining this or that, simply Loving which is becoming that
other consciousness or being.

Now a necessary pre-requisite of Omniscience is Omnipresence
else Omniscience is not possible, as what is known is simply a
part of that Omnipresence.

Knowledge or even very consciousness itself is also part of
Omnipresence, as Omnipresence is also that very consciousness.
i.e. Consciousness is Omnipresent.

Now stepping like this is the expression of Omnipotence, which
stepping has the pre-requisite of Omniscience, which is Love
itself. Else it could not be done.
Love is the moderator of the level of awareness, and is
therefore the warp and woof as it were, of omnipresence.

Love is "That"

yet "That" is void lest it manifest Omnipresence for the sake of
compassion for itself and in this way be limited only to the
experience Omnipresence.

So we can experience literally every degree of evil and good in
equality.
We can experience every single race color creed or creature as a
unique being experiencing a part of omnipresence that
Omniscience be satisfied.

Yet this is only possible in love, This Omnipresent-Omnipotent-
Omniscience.

Nothing else can transcend and therefore master this.

This is so, as Love Is its' own master..

Out of Love something is done or not done.
Such that it is not done because of Love
and it is done because Love.

OOMMM